There is something magical about seeing someone rise out of a situation of darkness, no matter if it was caused by fate or free will.
(I promise to donate a dollar to BSH every time I use the words fate/freewill.)I actually need the money for coffee.
People ask me how I turned out the way I am. I can sum it up to the list below:
- I didn’t want to let my stereotypes define who I am, instead, I wanted to show people who I can be.
- The best way to predict the future is to create it
- My future is something no one can take away from me unless I let them.
- Who I am is someone I can learn to control into the person I wished I could be
- I have a lot of people to prove wrong. Including my younger self.
- I want people to say, she is impressive. Not she is impressive for a foster kid, or because she is a woman, or that she is a woman of color.
- “She made it”
- “I made it”
I am strong because I didn’t have a choice not to be.
I am strong because I know what it feels like to be hopeless
I am strong because I never want to feel that way again.
I am strong because I once wasn’t.
I am happy because I no longer want to waste my life away being sad over something that only happened to about 5% of my lived days. I refuse to let the events in my life affect the rest of my life negatively. It will affect me, but in a way that motivates me.
I am healing because I chose to change the way I looked at life. I am ashamed because I let myself go this far without realizing it, It caused a lot of people to see me in a way that I am not proud of. I am healing for that little girl who didn’t think she would ever be anyone. I am healed because I can own up, speak up, and stand up to action.
BEING STRONG IS NOT ABOUT GETTING UP WHEN LIFE KNOCKS YOU DOWN, IT IS ABOUT GETTING UP KNOWING YOU WILL HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN, and again, and again.